A Step Back

One of my favorite subjects as a pupil was Math. Ever since I was a child I loved a good problem to solve and writing them on the chalkboard was something I really enjoyed. From time to time something very funny happened: I would see in my head the entire demonstration before going to the chalkboard, only to stumble halfway while I was writing it. Each time it occurred my teacher would come to me, gently grab my shoulders and slowly drag me backwards away from the chalkboard. Needless to say, every time he did that, I found a way to finish the demonstration and solve the problem.

That’s how I learned about the power of perspective. It’s been years since I last thought about those Math classes and only recently I realized how much those episodes have inspired me. I’ve changed my career three times now and every time I did that was by taking a step back. Luckily (or not!?) I have never been attached to my achievements or the effort for obtaining them so once I feel a chapter has ended, I change course quite easily and decisively.

Don’t get me wrong, I know I might sound like a person who bails out at the first hardship. :)) The truth is I made these changes after 5 years of intense work. And each time the milk and honey period lasted around 3 years, while the other 2 were about reinventing things and finding a new motivation. Did I score any tenacity points? πŸ˜›

Stepping back to gain perspective has always been very productive for me. Not only it gives me the chance to integrate previous experiences, it also helps me understand who I am in terms of values, attitudes, skills and desires at that particular moment in time. I have evolved a lot throughout the course of my life and these checkpoints provided me with a lot of revelations. I will share with you my top 3 so far.

It’s ok not to know all the time where the final destination is.

I’m not saying it’s easy, I’m just saying that uncertainty is a natural part of the process. Every time I ended a chapter I had to ask myself: what now? I never had a clear answer from the beginning, but I did trust the journey and magic usually happened.

When I first started working as a project manager I would see myself doing that for a very long time. Quite soon, I would discover I enjoy more helping others becoming certified professionals in Project Management and thus started my training career. During the same period I also had the opportunity to consult on external projects. After 5 years, I began studying Anthropology. I discovered correlations between the two fields and even wrote an article about it. Two years after the article was published, I received an invitation to deliver a training on a topic originating in Anthropology that would inform business decisions. I delivered the training session last month. πŸ™‚

So that’s what I mean by trusting the journey: do your work as authentically as possible and enjoy the ride; results will follow sooner or later. Which leads me to my next discovery.

I am fulfilled when I am able to express myself in what I do…

and not when my aim is a particular result, role or job title. As someone who has never had a vocation for known fields (medicine, law, engineering, etc.) I struggled my entire life with identifying myself with the job titles or roles I had. I worked as a project manager, as a trainer and as a consultant in the field, but never felt that I was a project manager, trainer or consultant. I am none of them completely, all of them combined, and also much more. To be completely honest, my early career decisions were based more on what I would be good at rather than what I would really want to do. I realized I had to change my focus from “what?” to “who?” and “how?”. Who am I and how can I really contribute to the world around me? I want to be able to use my skills in a meaningful way, to have the freedom to schedule my own time, to be able to travel and work from anywhere in this world, and to create as much as I can. Freelancing has proven the best solution for me although it has its challenges. However, the most important benefit I gained was the freedom to adjust my life rhythm. Because…

Time is… Nature.

Nature has its own particular flow and trying to control it is unrealistic on the long run (unfortunately, we are all witnessing the results of the Anthropocene era). As humans we are part of Nature and all of our lives are governed by the same universal laws of growth, stagnation, and decay. I have had periods of very intense work and growth followed by slack times and endings (projects are temporary). Accepting that my life follows a natural course and adapting to it was probably the best personal achievement so far. There is a time for everything and the current pandemic was an effective teacher in this respect (a harsh one too!).

I spent more time with my family the past year than I had had in the 10 years since I left home combined. It has been an incredibly healing time. I did not give up on my professional goals, but I made my family the number one priority and used this time to reflect on my next steps.

So here I am again in a transition phase. I fell in love with graphic design last year and decided to give it a chance. I even challenged myself and launched a project on Instagram with the intent of sending positive vibes as often as I am inspired. I am still exploring my creativity, I don’t think I have a style yet. I grew up telling myself I am not a creative person, but all my past experiences say otherwise (the reality is we are all creative, but it manifests in different ways). And I probably wouldn’t have realized it if it hadn’t been for the last step back. I have no idea yet where this path will lead me, I just feel like this is the flow I have to be in right now. πŸ™‚

Keep Going

Reflectie…

Discutam zilele trecute cu cativa prieteni despre dificultatea adaptarii oamenilor la complexitatile tehnologice actuale. Intrebarea care s-a ridicat in timpul discutiei a fost – Ce facem: oprim dezvoltarea de dragul armoniei sociale sau continuam?

Dezbaterea este foarte larga si, cred eu, fara un raspuns concret. Omul cauta fericirea, evolutiei nu-i pasa de asta. Lupta intre binele meu versus binele comunitatii nu cred ca va disparea vreodata. Cred insa ca natura are propriul ei mecanism de a regla conturile. Insa atunci cand o face impactul asupra omului este unul dramatic. Omenirea s-a tot jucat cu echilibrul natural de dragul evolutiei stiintifice si al bunastarii. Ritmul de evolutie stiintifica nu a tinut cont de ritmul de sustinere al sistemului natural (includ aici si natura umana, care are nevoie de timp sa integreze complexitatile… sa nu uitam ca mentalitatile se schimba in zeci de ani). Da, traim mai mult ca indivizi (datorita progreselor medicale, al produselor civilizatiei), dar ma intreb daca nu cumva in detrimentul longevitatii omenirii ca intreg… Cred insa ca tot din zona stiintei pot veni si solutiile inovatoare. Problema este ca salturile (progresele) acum sunt atat de uriase (necunoscutul atat de necunoscut) incat este si mai greu sa aliniezi masele la noile complexitati. Cine si-a exersat in timp adaptabilitatea la nou, are sanse, cine nu, este pierdut.

Nici dilema morala nu va disparea vreodata, sunt aceleasi teme de sute de ani. Discrepante intre cei educati si cei mai putin educati au existat si vor exista. Dilema daca mergi cu viteza inainte fara sa te uiti inapoi, sau mergi mai incet, sa tragi si comunitatea dupa tine a existat, exista si va exista. S-au schimbat doar problemele si complexitatile, nu relatia dintre ele si ecosistem. Lumea progreseaza datorita tensiunilor constante dintre aceste forte. Pentru mine intrebarea este: stiind jocul, te implici in el, constient ca este posibil sa nu observi transformari fundamentale in timpul vietii tale (deci nu ai acces la rezultatele muncii tale) sau urmaresti jocul de pe margine, traindu-ti viata linistit, in afara buclei. Iar in ultimul caz, cat de in afara buclei poti trai de fapt?

Consider ca singura cale viabila este cea a exemplului personal. Nu cred ca oamenii se vor educa spunandu-le lucruri (cu exceptia situatiei in care iti cer asta) ci adoptand de la alti oameni acele practici pe care si le doresc pentru ei. Ca sa fie eficienta, trebuie sa faca ei singuri pasul catre schimbare. Poate ca suna cliseic, dar eu chiar cred in “fii tu schimbarea pe care vrei sa o vezi in lume”. Si nu-i musai sa fie lucruri radicale, cat mai degraba sa reflecte un model de integritate umana. Potential de geniu avem toti, manifestarea lui depinde de fiecare. Dar pana si un act simplu (care, in realitatea, este poate cel mai complex lucru) de a-ti educa copiii este o contributie uriasa in lantul evolutiei. Stiu, ne-am obisnuit ca totul sa se intample rapid acum (la un click distanta), dar cand este vorba despre mentalitati si culturi trebuie sa acceptam ca integrarea oricaror complexitati noi necesita timp si cere de la noi rabdare si credinta ca schimbarea se produce, chiar daca progresul nu este evident de la inceput. πŸ™‚

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Sensul vietii

INAINTE. Acesta este. Fie ca ne place sau nu, viata curge… doar inainte. Cu bune si rele, cu bucurii si tristeti, cu fericire si agonie, in toate culorile de care este capabila. Tot inainte si fara drept de apel. De noi depinde doar directia. Sensul… a fost deja stabilit prin contractul asumat cu viata. πŸ™‚

Freedom and restraint

It’s funny how a conversation or a music lyric can trigger us to self-reflect. I recently saw Winter’s Bone, one of the early Jennifer Lawrence movies, and I just can’t get out of my head the last line in the movie. Having a conversation with her younger brother and sister, a 17 year old adolescent ends the movie saying this: [I won’t go anywhere] I’d be lost without the weight of you two on my back. Such a fascinating metaphor!

The moment I heard that line, all sorts of ideas about freedom, burdens, responsibilities, and life direction flooded my mind. And, somehow, my entire life passed before my eyes. I love freedom. For me, this life is about experiences and growth. I want the freedom to learn whatever sparkles my interest at a given time, to try new things, to move, to travel, to continuously evolve, to decide upon my schedule, to choose how to contribute. However, as much as I love freedom, I also have an innate talent for taking over a lot of responsibilities. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’m in some sort of uncontrolled cycle in which people place their responsibilities on me and I just can’t refuse. I simply (and consciously!) get involved in all kinds of activities just because I have the ability for it or I find it an interesting learning experience. The thing is my learning curve is very fast and after a while the exciting learning experience starts feeling like a restraint.

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I’ve been pondering upon the freedom-restraint polarity and the quest for balance for some time now. I discovered that the expectation of reaching that absolute balance (the middle point between the two extremes) created a lot of pressure in myself. And the fact that I never felt that I reached it made me doubt myself a lot. “I am not disciplined enough”, “I haven’t figured out yet a system that works for me”, “Will I ever be happy?” were some of my thoughts. The breakthrough came when I realised I had it all wrong. I was looking at balance from a result-oriented perspective, instead of a process-oriented one. I was targeting an ideal fixed point between the two extremes, instead of the back and forth dance. Truth is there will always be times of restraint, and times of freedom. The trick for me was to adjust (balance) the total amount of time I spend in each of them in a way that best fits my personality. Because I am rather an enthusiastic and intense person, I tend to overdo things. I can be very fascinated about a new subject for two days and read incessantly, I can watch movies for an entire day, or I can get extremely focused for multiple days in a row when I am in the process of creating something. Sometimes, cycles like these can last longer. I might be interested in a particular field of study or activity for multiple years. I am capable of sustained effort for a long period of time, but also eager to trek for an entire month.

As you can imagine, reaching a daily (often weekly) freedom-restraint balance is not the best strategy for me. I need time to dive in and a few hours a day might not be enough. Instead, I strive for reaching this balance on a monthly or yearly basis. I do enjoy having responsibilities, they provide me with a sense of contribution to this world. But I am consciously balancing the intense work periods with intense rest and entertaining ones. I do have a daily routine set in place to get me aligned physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for reaching my objectives, but I am also aware of my internal natural flow and decide to follow it. I will never stop being a responsible person. Nevertheless, I will always strive for the freedom to choose the responsibilities I take on. And that’s the system that works amazingly for me. Have you found yours? What do you do to maintain the freedom-restraint balance in your life? πŸ™‚

A thought…

For as long as I can remember I have been a very curious person, with a lot of questions: Why is this or that happening? Why am I here? What’s my purpose on this planet? What are the underlying reasons that make us behave in certain ways? What can I learn from everything I experience? How do things work? How can I best solve the situations I confront? and so on…

Being blessed with an enthusiastic mind concerning complex problems I searched for answers in different fields and thought systems (from more practical to rather metaphysical ones). What I learned in the process is that the same truth can be explained from different perspectives and it is only a matter of choice about how to act on it. However, the challenge lies not only in the multitude of perspectives (for example, trying to look at unemployment from the lenses of employers, unemployed people, impact on national GDP, etc.), but also in the moral good/bad polarity. What is “good” from one point of view, might be “bad” from another one.

What I have found to be the main issue we are struggling with as humanity is the underlying belief that bad outcomes are intentional. “He/she definitely wanted to hurt me”, “My employer only thinks about profit”, “Governments don’t really care about their people” and many other similar phrases that we tell ourselves or hear around us. And I believe it all comes from a combination of fear (fear of losing control, fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, etc.) and not having immediate access to other people’s motivations (what we see is their behavior). Fear leads to mistrust and once you put on the mistrust glasses, it’s really hard to see (or be willing to search for) the good intention behind a bad outcome. But if “the path to hell is paved with good intentions” (as Dante wrote in the “Divine Comedy”) you might ask: why does it matter if behind a bad outcome is a bad or good intention? A bad outcome is a bad outcome. Period.

I think it makes a tremendous difference on how to respond to it. If you were indeed meant harm or you just believe so (with no objective proof), the entire situation might turn into a war zone. But if you take 10 min to breathe and try to understand the intention (even by asking) of the other party, you might descover it was a matter of insufficient knowledge or a bad choice in the implementation that led to a bad outcome. In this case, with a little bit of openness and availability (from all parties concerned) to focus on the solutions and not the problem, the situation might turn into a win-win.

I am not trying to say that there aren’t also people with bad intentions in this world. I am simply saying that most of the time, pausing before reacting and asking ourselves what glasses was the other person wearing in that situation (what were his/her motivations), it might help us avoid unnecessary conflicts and even turn bad outcomes into good ones on the long run. I am also aware of how challenging it is for our brain to fight against the immediate flight/ fight/ freeze response, but just imagine how our world would look like if we were able and willing to step into the shoes of others from time to time.

A lifetime in a month and the lessons it brought

I am a huge fan of observing the common underlying principles in different settings. After experiencing an amazing adventure on the Camino de Santiago last Summer, I started thinking about what made it so great and what can be replicated in everyday work life. And the following are some of the key findings.

Big goals matter, smaller ones make you feel better

For those of you who haven’t heard about the Camino de Santiago before, it is one of the most famous medieval Christian pilgrimages that has multiple routes, all ending in Santiago de Compostela, in Spain. The most travelled is the French way that starts in France in St. Jean Pied-de-Port and is about 800 km long.

As you can imagine, one cannot do 800 km by foot in a day, therefore thorough preparation is required. First of all, the equipment: confortable shoes and a light backpack, with only the necessary things, are of utmost importance. The lighter your equipment, the faster and longer you can travel each day. The body adjusts to a heavier equipment too, but it takes longer and it depends on its previous condition.

Second, the daily routine: even though on the Camino there is no day like other, there are some rituals that provide a touch of stability. Preparing the backpack each morning, putting vaseline on the feet to prevent blisters, stretching before starting to walk, stopping for breakfast after the first 5-7 km, doing the walk, checking in at the albergue, having a shower, washing clothes, having lunch (and maybe a siesta afterwards), having dinner and getting to bed by 22.00… these made the 800 km just fly by.

Lastly, listening to your body is key to making sure you reach Santiago de Compostela. Some days you might walk 35 km, others you might not…even if you are very well trained, so many unexpected things can happen (for instance, I hurt one of my toes in the second day on the Camino and I had to walk bandaged and at a lower pace for the next three days). There’s no point in hurrying. Better done (the Camino) than perfect (walking the same distance every day).

How is that relatable to a work environment? I like to think that a pilgrim’s equipment is similar to the tools, techniques, and procedures that an employee has to work with. Bureaucracy and complicated tools can sometimes slower the process of getting things done. The skills and capabilities required to perform your daily activities are similar to the body condition of the pilgrim. And trust me when I say that nothing is more frustrating than having to stop or slow down because of blisters caused by inappropriate shoes… Yes, we are able to learn and navigate complexities, but the bigger the gap between the goal and the appropriate means to reach it, the longer it takes. This is also true in the case of personal values vs. company values.

Like in the Universe, change is now the only constant in the current economic environment. There is no work day like other. Being adaptable is good, being too adaptable takes a toll on you. Some sort of stability must be ensured in order to maintain the balance of the system. Going to sleep and waking up at the same hour every day, having programmed and timeboxed periods of time for answering emails, or pausing from time to time to breathe deeply, are all rituals that bring stability, focus, and increased productivity each day. In a work environment we might have little control over the items on the TO DO list, but that does not apply to our own behaviour.

Big goals matter, but smaller ones make you feel better. Each successful walking day on the Camino (without blisters, tendinitis or unbearable pain in my shoulders from the backpack) felt like victory. After a while I even forgot about the goal and started enjoying each day at its fullest. The funny part was that the joy of reaching Santiago was packed with sadness when I realised my Camino was ending. So once again, for me it was not about the destination, it was all about the journey.

How did that impact the way I work? It just made me realise that all goals are attainable when divided in fast reachable smaller ones. The most important thing is to start walking. Things will just fall into places at some point.

The goal is important, the people you reach it with are even more

In my Camino experience I was lucky enough to meet truly amazing people, some of whom I now call family. Each journey is ultimately an interior one and the people we meet along the way are mirrors of our own self. They help us grow (not always the easy way), adjust the route, and (the most pleasant one) enjoy the ride. πŸ™‚ When you ask people who walked the Camino what they enjoyed the most, in most cases the response would be the camaraderie between pilgrims. Even though most people start the Camino alone and they are coming from different parts of the world, everyone is eager to help everyone, no matter the age, race, sex, religion, social status, etc. Everyone is equal. You could say it is the “culture” of the Camino.

Reaching Santiago with the friends I made on the way felt amazing. And even though sometimes our ways were split for a few days, we all made it back to the group richer and more appreciative of the strong bond we had developed for each other.

In this respect, Camino was again a snapshot of the real life. Having a good support system (family, colleagues, friends) to share ones experiences with (either good or bad) makes the journey enjoyable and full of hope. No matter how hard the project or task, being surrounded by people with similar values makes everything feel possible. The culture of the company is also important. The group thrives when differences (of opinion, work habits, etc.) are embraced and when people are given the time and liberty to perform the roles they best fit in. Success just gains a different dimension.

Time really is the best healer

The hardest thing about the Camino I found out to be the life after it. After a month in a bubble of fresh air (literaly and figuratively) and deep, structural cleansing, returning to normal life can sometimes be depressing. Reality strikes you in the face without warning. From a world of pure bliss and freedom you return to responsibilities and agitation. You come back transformed and you have to find a way to manifest that into everyday life. The most challenging part of all is that no one back home really understands what you have experienced unless they have done a similar journey themselves. So you are now caught up in-between two worlds without any clue about how to navigate from here. I was lucky enough (again) to have had the time to reflect on all of this and to, finally, integrate it (it took me 6 months). The most important lesson for me is to keep going and allow myself to pause from time to time. I have always had this pressure in my head to perform, and society isn’t helping either in this respect. Now I am at peace with the fact that nothing will fall of the sky if I take a day off (I used to do that in the past as well, but felt really guilty about it). Like the body, our minds also need to rest and make the learning and integration processes possible. Some people need longer rest periods than others (depending on the propensity for reflection) and it’s perfectly fine.

The constant adaptation we go through at work (new projects, new clients, new tools, new management, new strategies, etc.) challenges our brains tremendously. Time to adapt to everything is key. Even if in the short run it might feel like things will get out of control for not answering an email or returning a call right away, on the long run having patience with ourselves will be healthier.

Camino felt like a lifetime in one month and that’s why it was a very intense experience. Met friends, said goodbye to them, only to meet them again. Confronted different aspects of myself that I had previously thought were healed. Being a part of a new multicultural family, to whom I can always talk even if we are miles apart… All of this has put my life in a different perspective. And I am a huge fan of perspectives. I believe they help us grow as human beings and perform better in every context.

So, to sum up, like in every other endeavor:

  • Having the right equipment (tools, techniques, culture, etc.) for the road makes every difference
  • Training increases endurance and resilience
  • Splitting goals into smaller objectives/ stages keeps us on track and increases the level of dopamine (although this might not always be a good thing… haha)
  • Building a good support system makes life easier and more enjoyable
  • It’s important to give ourselves the time to do it right (quality managers might agree with me on this one)

Life after the Camino

It is said that it takes 6 months to fully integrate an experience… It’s been 5 months since I returned from the Camino and today I felt it is time to do a review. πŸ™‚

So this is what I have learned and changed in the past months:

1. I have enough time to do everything I set my mind to.

2. All the limitations are in my head and only in my head. There is nothing really stopping me in the outside world.

3. I set objectives more easily and I start working towards achieving them more quickly and fiercely (thank you Elia and Woori for that!)

4. I enrolled in a Master’s programme in another country (thank you Elia for that!)

5. I realised how important people are in my life and that I am never trully alone (thank all of you guys for that!)

6. I hug people more and with more ease (thank all of you guys for that!).

7. When I laugh, I am doing it from the bottom of my heart (thank you Franz and Sebastiaan for that!).

8. Magic happens when I approach people with a fully open heart (thank you Benoit for that!).

9. I am enjoying the simple things as much as the complicated ones (thank you Lydia for that!).

10. I find time for myself every day (thank you Fermin for that!).

11. Silent conversations are just as rich as the loud ones (thank you Eunkyoung and Sebastiaan for that!).

12. I am ok with the fact that sometimes I lose my way and it is only a matter of time and detemination until I find myself again (thank you Franz and Silvia for that!).

13. Self discipline is key to get things done (thank you Mike for that!).

14. I am strong when I stay true to my principles (thank you Mario for that!).

15. Dilemmas are solved by asking the right questions (thank you Sebastiaan for that!).

16. The insatiable curiosity and wonder of my inner child is what keeps me young and healthy (thank you Juan for that!)

17. Perfect timing is real! (thank you Daniel for that!)

Last, but not least, genuine friendship feels amazing. And for that I thank all of you guys! I just know that the Universe becomes a better place every time we meet. So let’s continue to shine on! πŸ™‚

Zilele 31-34… Santiago – Fisterra – Muxia – Santiago

A fost greu sa continuu drumul fara toti prietenii mei. Am avut noroc insa ca i-am mai avut alaturi de mine pentru cateva zile pe Lydia, Juan, Woori si Franz si am putut sa discutam despre experienta acestui drum initiatic. Am ras, am plans si am incheiat cu recunostinta faptului ca ne-a fost dat sa experimentam o astfel de conexiune umana… La intoarcerea in Santiago, ne-am revazut cu alti prieteni de pe Camino si ne-am putut lua la revedere si de la ei, cu increderea in faptul ca ne vom revedea cu totii candva. πŸ™‚

Oceanul si apusurile au fost superbe in aceste 3 zile, va las si pe voi sa va bucurati de ele: https://photos.app.goo.gl/6fWhKhcHoxwqpnfz7

 

 

 

Zilele 29-30… De la ArzΓΊa la Santiago de Compostela

E foarte ciudat mixul de sentimente care m-a incearcat pe masura ce ma apropiam de Santiago. Pe de-o parte traiam bucuria incheierii unei calatorii de o luna de zile, cu provocari mai mici si mai mari, pe de alta parte simteam tristetea ca va trebui sa ma despart de noua mea familie in curand… Au fost doua zile grele din punct de vedere emotional, insa durerea despartirii a fost atenuata de faptul ca am stabilit ca ne vom revedea pentru a petrece Revelionul impreuna in Valencia (si asa a si fost πŸ™‚ ).

Am petrecut doua zile in Santiago, meritam sa ne odihnim putin si sa traim din plin momentul reusitei. Am luat o pauza de la albergues si am inchiriat un apartament cu 4 camere doar pentru noi. In prima seara am luat cina β€žacasa” impreuna (am avut parte de paste italiene veritabile, gatite de Silvia si Elia πŸ™‚ ), apoi am iesit in oras la karaoke si dansat. A fost o noapte de pomina, cu distractia caracteristica noua :). A doua zi ne-am facut timp sa savuram orasul si sa ne bucuram de ultimele momente impreuna in formula completa.

Si iata-ma luandu-mi, pe rand, la revedere de la Elia, Sebastiaan, Benoit, Silvia, Fermin si Mike… Lydia, Woori, Franz, Juan si cu mine am continuat spre Finisterra si, apoi, Muxia.

Las aici cateva amintiri din aceste doua zile: https://photos.app.goo.gl/BMMYB4Tbbk7AukFM7

 

Zilele 20-28… De la Astorga la ArzΓΊa

Au mai ramas doua zile pana la Santiago de Compostela. Ultima saptamana a fost atat de plina cu noii mei prieteni, incat n-am mai apucat sa scriu.

Sunt bine, organismul a inceput sa simta efortul, dar nimic serios (mici dureri articulare si musculare din cand in cand, care trec cu antiinflamatoare). Am decis sa continuu acest Camino pana la Fisterra (“capatul lumii”), apoi la Muxia, unde se afla un templu foarte special. Avionul catre Bucuresti decoleaza pe 26 august (seara), prin urmare am timp sa fac si ultima parte a traseului.

Mi-e greu sa mai exprim in cuvinte experienta de pe Camino, in special din ultima saptamana… trebuie traita pentru a fi inteleasa la adevarata ei valoare. Asadar, va las doar o parte din poze: https://photos.app.goo.gl/HEC8DUfZQ3UPHWYEA